Have you ever wondered who you really are? Why God created you? What your purpose in life is? What you are here for?
Well, I have and of late it is all that has been occupying my mind. I started feeling a void inside of me a few weeks ago. I thought it would go as it had come. It did not. It is almost a month now and I am going through hell searching for myself. I stopped living the day I started feeling empty. Everything has just become plain routine to me. My senses are working alright but the person seated in front of this monitor is not me.
So the big question: Who am I? Constantly, I keep asking myself: What is wrong with me? Yet the question I should be asking is; what is that right thing about me that I have not yet found out? How can I find it?
What should I do to find it? God does not make mistakes and whatever He sets out to do He brings to completion. The Bible tells me that I am created in God’s own image – Gen 1:26. To find that right thing, I need a settled and clear mind which I do not have at the moment. The past 4 years have been a kind of blur, it seems yesterday when I graduated but look at me now!
Should I change the way I live?
Should I change the way I relate?
Should I change the way I work?
Should I change the way I think?
Should I change the way I pray?
If so, how should I?
These are some of the questions in my head. They keep going on in my head and I have no answer to any of them. This leaves in a very confused state of mind. WHAT SHOULD I DO? I need your help.
I ask God on a daily basis to help me find an answer. I know better than to rush Him. As a Christian, I was taught in catechism class that God works in mysterious ways at His own time and His ways are not our ways. The Bible says that “Give your burdens to the LORD and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.” Ps 55:22.
“Dear God, I wish to give you burdens but Lord, I am confused. I do not know what my burdens are. Please Lord, help me clear this confusion and find answers to these numerous questions rotating in my head. “
I know He listens. I find no satisfaction anywhere. If I can not find it in cooking, will I find it anywhere? Yeah, I love cooking that much!
Is it because of this Celiac Disease that I was born with?
Is it because of my weaknesses and failings?
Why? Lord, why?
Quote of the day:
The purpose of life is a life of purpose. ~Robert Byrne
Let me go wait on the Lord.
Happy weekend friends!