State of the Mind


Blank.
A feeling I identify with
Confused.
A state I have been in lately
Sleepless
This describes me right now

Darkness ensues all around me
The light in my room, still burns
I scribble these notes on these pages
I am awake and I don’t know why

Afraid.
I didn’t know growing up would be such a task
Scared.
of the future and all it holds
Excited.
About the future and all it holds

I know it will eventually be fine
Maybe I should give it time
I know what this means
Yet, I can’t explain

Stay true to yourself. Never be ashamed of doing what feels right. Decide what you think is right and stick to it.

Breaking the silence…


I have not been here in a long while. I have not had a moment of stillness for the couple of months. As we enter the 2nd half of this year, I will purpose to:

  • Be still;
  • Pray more;
  • Listen more;
  • Read more.

It takes zeal and constant dedication to achieve that. A short list of exercises that when well executed will lead me to discoveries beyond self.

As I grow one year older, I purpose to be a better man, better brother and to stay improving day by day…

 

I am tormented by my dreams

Tortured by this fleeting glimpse of hope

Frustrated with this difficult life.

Lost.

So I look to the setting sun, therein lies beauty of the creator

The starless night sky

As the moon hides away from my sight

Lost.

I feel the lifeless cold of the tiled floor

The drip drop of the tap

and the smell of the rotting garbage

Lost.

Nimbus clouds gather in the distance,

The rain is coming

Dampening my old darkened mood

Lost.

 

In this world, it is too common for people to search for someone to lose themselves in. But I am already lost. I will look for someone to find myself in.
― C. JoyBell C.

 

I am still finding me.

 

Awake and away


 

I left my body in this chair as my soul drifts away

Searching for that I cannot attain

Longing for that which cannot quench

I remember…

 

Like it was yesterday,

It will remain nothing but a memory

That which we could have had

I will remember

 

When I do, I will walk away

And I will remind you

That this was nothing but a dream,

As I wake up

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Raindrops,

The call of the Hadada Ibis.

The sun on my skin,

Footsteps in the distance.

You are not here.

 

Nightfall,

The howl of the dogs,

The glow of the moonlight,

Raindrops… again

You are not here.

 

Silence,

The happy laughter of children,

Emptiness,

Then silence.

I am tormented by your silence.

 

 

 

Day 3… [3-day Quote challenge]


I lie here in silence

The walls are bare

Your scent lingers the room

Maybe I was wrong.

 

It could have been

Yet it never was

So I lie here in silence

Waiting and hoping

 

Let us take that walk

Dare to dream again

Let us be once more

Who thought we could be!

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A great day to you!

 

Quote of the day:

Be happy in the moment. that’s enough. Each moment is all we need, not more.”

Mother Theresa